i realise how fragile a person can be when temptation really comes
here's the story
i've gone one step so close to losing my virginity
i thank God for being there to protect me
i've held fast to my own determination of staying a virgin until the day i get married
it is true that it is nor by might, not by power but by the Spirit of God
i felt weak last night
he did the usual we did when lights are off and clothes are gone
i wanted to give up and just give in
i wasn't myself then
twice i tried to tempt him to do it
but he did not
the second time i tried
i felt awake
realising what the real situation is
i prayed
God, if You are really here and You love me
please protect me
if he really loves me
he will not do what he shouldn't do
he didn't
stopped
i asked
why didn't you do it when you could?
his answer
he couldn't afford to take care of me and he wants to treasure me
he'd wait for the day of marriage
i broke down, literally
God, why?
why do You still want to protect me even if i've tried to leave You
push You away?
His answer, my mercies are new everyday
thank the ever loving God for His protection and love and mercies
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